My 1st short sem

Actually what's the difference between "semester" and "trimester"?
It has bothered me for quite some time.
I know I can look for the answer whenever I want.
But, ah... whatever, I just don't feel like doing it now.
So... I guess I will just let it be. (Lazy me)

This sem is my first short sem in UTAR and... it's coming to an end. =)
I have to say, this sem could be the most relaxed semester for my 3 years degree life in UTAR.
No Chinese subjects, only 2 LANs subjects with a English language paper.
Since it is going to end, it indicates that Final is just around the corner. =)

And I have to say... Gosh, I love this short sem!
It's really relaxing, with only three subjects.
And most importantly, it is so short that it is going to end even before I realized it.

Although I'm REALLY disappointed with me mid-term result, it's over. (I tell myself that)
But frankly speaking, I think I'm going to miss my Communicative English tutor. =(
(the only thing that I hate about this ending)

Gonna make study plans for my finals.
Good luck to me! =)

小沮丧

When an outcome fails to reach the expectation, disappointment shall occur.
I am clearly aware that life would not go just as how you wish it to be.
That's why life is full of surprises and it is unpredictable.
However, no matter how much I am aware of this "principle" of life, still, it will feel kind of sad and disappointed when I fail to reach my target.
I'll admit, it's quite surprising when I got the result. I know I didn't do it very well, but I'm quite confident with my answers. I thought I could get a better result, but... ah, it's disappointing!

Sometimes, I really look up to someone who can still get up and stand straight no matter how many time he falls.
Doesn't he feel despair after failing for so many times?
How could he be so strong?
How did he overcome all the sadness and desperation?

High Emotional Intelligence Quotient (EQ) is something that I'm really lacking.
Sometimes, I'm really wish that I could be a little optimism rather than being so pessimism for all the time.

Thus, gotta keep telling myself: Don't take every small little things that "heavily".
It's tiring & I can't move on if continue for being like this.
So, my dear, please get over quickly.
You don't have time for grieving.

Get over it.
Get over it.
Get over it.
Seriously, it's time to move on.

失败的冲动

其实我很早就知道了，我的自我要求真的很高。甚至有时候会很辛苦，因为要求过高而把自己逼得喘不过气来。
有时候，当我站在别人的角度想的时候，我也会认为：绝对不要做像我这样的人，因为实在是太辛苦了。
不过，有时候，我真的会怀疑自己是否有自虐倾向。因为……虽然辛苦，但我觉得自己还蛮享受这种压力的。言之意下，我根本就没想过要改变自己。甚至认为要求高很好啊。而且，应该把目标设得更高才对。

不过不过，这些都不是本篇的重点。

其实，现在看回以前的帖子，总觉得……搞什么啦！自己以前到底在写什么？这种没水准的东西。
如果我的冲动成功转化为行动的话，我想我应该会把以前的帖子都删得一干二净吧。
不过，还是算了吧。
就这样放着，作为以后自嘲的用途吧。

后悔吗？

这里……被我荒废了好久。
几乎快一年了。还是真的已经一年了？
反正呢，我早就知道我就是这种性格的了。很容易厌倦的性格。
写腻了就不写了。
就像游戏一样，玩腻了就不玩了。
所以，这种情况确实也没什么好奇怪的。

不过说真的，最近真的有种想要“挖个洞，然后把自己埋起来”的冲动。
总觉得这个学期做了很多很丢脸的事情。
而且，总是在事后才后悔：我为什么要这么做？感觉好蠢哦！

唉……
所以……就这样吧。